The Morning Grump Needs Some Attention

My family and I just returned from a camping trip over this holiday weekend.  Normally, I don't like going to this camp ground during a holiday, but there was rain in our area and it kept the majority of the camp ground empty all weekend leaving just us few campers willing to brave the rain.  It was a great weekend.

However, I somehow earned a spanking today.  It was a punishment spanking per se, but it was definitely not what I wanted to do at the moment.

You ever have a spanking that just pisses you off at first.  This one did.  I woke up grumpy this morning (from lack of sleep all weekend?) and I didn't want to be bothered with anything and especially not a stupid silly spanking.  I was just plain annoyed.  I laid there thinking "this is annoying" "this is stupid" "why does he have to do this anyway" "what a jerk he's being" "I have other things to be doing" and more.  I'm pretty sure it was that attitude that landed me OTK to begin with.  John wouldn't stop until he broke through to me though and he did.

I think it's my reaction after the spanking that freaks him out the most these days.  After, I kind of pout a little.  Maybe shut down.  I don't feel shut down but I don't talk about what I'm feeling because to be honest I don't fully understand it.  I feel pouty for no reason, I feel like I screwed up and I don't really want to end up OTK again.

Before I could be comforted back to a normal temperament, the baby (who's not a baby) had an accident in her pants so John took her to clean her up and I began cleaning the mess on the floor.  When he returned he said "Baby, I was going to do that" this made me frown a little at him.  I hadn't intended to and wasn't really aware I had done it but he sent me back to the room anyway.  I went in and began to cry.  He said "Baby, what's wrong" and I blubbered out "I don't want to get spanked again"  He said he wouldn't and laid down with me in our bed to cuddle a little.  I began feeling better and I'm not a grump anymore.

Note to John:  After this spanking today I feel much more awake or alert or whatever I wasn't feeling earlier, definitely less grumpy or annoyed, not motivated though (not sure where that went) and I feel much more relaxed right now.  Things just feel right when they didn't earlier.  Thanks for that.